A Poem for your reading enjoyment / thoughts and comments

So I used to post poems all the time on my Deadjournal and Facebook and stuff. I'm kind of surprised that I haven't posted that many here yet, but now I have one (Note: Sometimes my poems are only kind of poems, and by this I mean that I write my feelings out and kind of just put them in poem format. You'll see what I mean). Here goes (I wrote this one beforehand...this is a topic that has been on my mind for a while now, but I haven't really been able to get all my feelings about it out until now):

We've only known each other
For about 19 years
And we've only been best friends
For about 10.
That's one year longer
Than I was best friends
With my best friend before.
But I don't care anymore.
You might think
Why mention it
If I don't care
But if you just wait
You'll see where I stand.

I used to think it mattered
Who you called
Your Best Friend
But now I've realized
That it doesn't matter
Who you call
Your Best Friend
Or even whether you have one
Or not.
What matters is how
You think about and treat
The people that matter to you
The most.

Now I know we've had our
Differences
And I know we've had our
Fights
But aren't best friends
Supposed to stick together
Through peanut butter and feathers
And work it all out
In the end?

Now I know we all are
Really busy
And for some of us
It's right there
In our names,
Plain as day,
For all to see.
As clearly as if
It were written
On our
Foreheads.
And I know that some of us don't like
To communicate in old-fashioned ways,
When we have all this modern tech-no-logy.

I feel like I've given you
A world of space
And time to
Think this through.
And even though I am
Just over the bridge
Or through the tunnel
At most,
I feel
Like we
Are worlds apart.

I want you to know
That I miss you, babe,
And I feel like I
Am on the outside
Of the circle of your life;
I am Mufasa
After the stampede,
But wearing
The costume of Darth Vader
You are
Simba Luke Sky-lion-walker
And I feel like I don't know you
Anymore.

And I've tried to initiate
Communication
And conversation
But I got sick of
Making all the effort.
So I took a step back
And forgot for a while,
And waited for you, but
Nothing
Happened.
Now I realize we may have grown

A P A R T

And I understand
That that happens sometimes
But I still don't think I'm ready
To accept it yet.
Something I read somewhere

A L O N G time ago

Keeps running through my head: "eventually
you'll be able to let them go".
But when is
Eventually?

I'm sorry that this is so long, but I hope that you enjoyed it and will try to post again soon because there has been A LOT on my mind lately (more than just this). Sooooo...until another time (which like I said will hopefully be soon).

--Emily